6/30/05

Yo Yo Yo
I am still trying to get used to this blogging thing. I have come to realize that it gives me some sort of peace of mind and relaxes me a bit to know that I can release the thoughts in my head to an online diary that anyone can have access to. (lol) I have to think twice about things that I write here sometimes, I just don't want to get myself into any trouble in case my best friend or another person I may know stumbles across this. Oh well.....
I had a pretty good day yesterday, still very tired from my weekend. I just can't seem to find a place to run off to where no one knows me or can call my cell phone to BUG me! Soon enough I guess. My aunt is still adjusting to having to give herself insulin not to mention she is trying to take care of my great aunt who also has been put on insulin and of course I have to run her errands and take her to the store because she can't drive. The Lord will bless but at some point GOD I have to have rest.
I have missed out on being home and even getting to spend time with my best friend in the whole wide world (RCV).
I normally keep up with current events but lately I have been so out of it that I haven't even been able to keep up with myself. My daughter is doing really good and she loves her head start class. She never seems to tell me exactly what I want to know regarding her day at school. I guess eventually she will start to let me into that little brain of hers.
Oh yea before I forget it was so interesting that I saw a guy I haven't seen in a year. I feel kind of bad because of the way I did him. The ironic part of it all was the fact that I thought about him earlier this week. Wondering exactly what was going on with him and the usual how was he type stuff. Never to imagine or think that I would see him riding his bike (part of his exercise regimine (sp) ) while I was taking my aunt on her errands. Then I laughed because the first thing he said to me was, "I see that you are still keeping it sexy" and of course my reply was, "You know how I do it!" Interestingly enough we talked last night to kind of clear some things and I apologized for doing him wrong when he was nothing but sweet to me. Then at 6:30 a.m. my phone rang and it was him calling to say Good Morning! Boy did I feel special. ALL in ALL yesterday was a good day. Nothing really exciting happened but God is stilll good and that's all that matters.

Jas

Wonder

I often wonder what my life would be like without the past I had
I often wonder what my life would be life if I had everything I desired
I often wonder what my life would be like if I had not become a mother at 18
I often wonder what my life would be like if I was an only child
I often wonder what my life would be like I went off to college

I guess these are things I'll never know but things I will often wish that happened or wonder if I would be the person I am now

I might have been everything that my mom wanted me to be with good grades, character and the high school sweetie she saw me to be
Or maybe I'd be driving a CLK Mercedes finishing up a degree just to be getting it
Enjoying the college life, living it up in my own world, maybe joining the sorority of my choice being all that in a bag of chips
Yea right
I would probably be alone and scared with no one to love and care for or maybe wild and out of control not knowing which way to turn
An only child spoiled but lost not knowing who what when where or how in the hell----
If I went off to college---Yea I'll never know

American Flag in a Whole New Light

American Flag: This is awesome READ THROUGH TO UNDER THE PICTURE.This is a beautiful photo of a giant flag in Arizona. The photo is authentic and un-retouched. The picture was taken on regular Kodak 35 mm film. The person who took the picture couldn't believe the image created by the sun's rays. Nice of them to share with the world! For those that prefer to think that God is not watching over us....go ahead and delete this. For the rest of us.....pass this on.

Today....

Today was another day that starts off the week, the dreaded Monday! Yea I hated to see it. When I woke up this morning I had a terrible headache and lately I have been having them. It's been weird. I think I am overworking myself. This weekend I was on the go none stop once I finished my full time job. After I left work I was going to meet with a bride whose wedding was on Sunday to discuss final details regarding the big day so that everything could flow as it should. It was quite interesting. She being from Haiti and I had never been involved with Haitians and it was an interesting experience. I learned a little bit about their food and their music which was enough for me, not to mention their attitudes and they are not very friendly people at all. Although we had a few rough moments with the Bride being overwhelmed with everything, the wedding was beautiful. She was very sad because her father was not able to leave Haiti to be there to escort her on her big day but he was there in spirit and she was settled by the time she was to walk down the aisle.

TNIGP

Yea now that I think about it, I know what happened. Of course I didn't know what was going to happen but now I remember it all clearly. Just like it was yesterday, when he got mad because another dude was paying me some attention. He couldn't stand that other man going after what he thought was always going to be his as long as he wanted it to be. The night my boy "John Doe" brought me home from the football game was the night he wanted he wanted to ride with my mom and use her key at my doorstep to get into the house to prove that all John Doe wanted to do was get some of what he had experienced for months. The thing is I don't know why I was still fooling with him in the first place. When all the while it was John Doe that I had the crush on but never did he go after what all the others wanted for that brief moment of pleasure just to get a chance to tell everyone yea I had her too. Just when I thought about it, it made me wonder really about him and it became more clearer that he wanted to have his cake and eat it too. I let John go so that we could keep the peace and the donor stay only to find myself giving it up to the guy I once gave my whole heart to. The one who lied and told me he loved me, the who cheated with the girl down the street from me (whose house I could see when I walked out my door), the one who didn't appreciate a damn thing I did for him and yet I still gave up the goodies. (I get mad when I think about it) For what? Yea I was thinking that maybe one day he would come to his senses and take me back so that we could live happily ever after. Yea right! The moment was right I got mine, he got his but little did I know that he wouldn't use the famouse "PULL OUT" method that he had used so many times before. He was enjoying that good moment and got caught all up in that good stuff and BAM!!!! That's when hell began for me..........

6/23/05

~Hola Mi Bloggers~

I didn't personally post yesterday so I figured I should today. Life is kool right now. Just trying to think and work out the kinks. My daughter is wonderful, "Healthy as a Horse as her Dr. would say." Oh yea that reminds me that I need to make her appointment for her check up. Anyways....Don't really have any dilemmas right now. Just life itself can be a dilemma in itself. I often wonder why life has so many journeys, ups and down, etc..etc..etc.. but then I realize that all of my issues come into play because of the path I have chosen to take my life down. I realized that being a Christian, no one ever said that it would be easy, hard neither for that matter but a continual test of Character, strength, Test and most of all being able to TRUST GOD! Anyways, I don't want to preach but that's what was on my heart for today. Hopefully I will have another heart to heart moment and express some feelings with u guys!

Until the next Piece.........Peace

AFI List of Top 100 American Movie Quotes

1. ``Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn,'' ``Gone With the Wind,'' 1939. 2. ``I'm going to make him an offer he can't refuse,'' ``The Godfather,'' 1972. 3. ``You don't understand! I coulda had class. I coulda been a contender. I could've been somebody, instead of a bum, which is what I am,'' ``On the Waterfront,'' 1954.
4. ``Toto, I've got a feeling we're not in Kansas anymore,'' ``The Wizard of Oz,'' 1939.
5. ``Here's looking at you, kid,'' ``Casablanca,'' 1942.
6. ``Go ahead, make my day,'' ``Sudden Impact,'' 1983.
7. ``All right, Mr. DeMille, I'm ready for my close-up,'' ``Sunset Blvd.,'' 1950.
8. ``May the Force be with you,'' ``Star Wars,'' 1977.
9. ``Fasten your seatbelts. It's going to be a bumpy night,'' ``All About Eve,'' 1950.
10. ``You talking to me?'' ``Taxi Driver,'' 1976.
11. ``What we've got here is failure to communicate,'' ``Cool Hand Luke,'' 1967.
12. ``I love the smell of napalm in the morning,'' ``Apocalypse Now,'' 1979.
13. ``Love means never having to say you're sorry,'' ``Love Story,'' 1970.
14. ``The stuff that dreams are made of,'' ``The Maltese Falcon,'' 1941.
15. ``E.T. phone home,'' ``E.T. the Extra-Terrestrial,'' 1982.
16. ``They call me Mister Tibbs!'', ``In the Heat of the Night,'' 1967.
17. ``Rosebud,'' ``Citizen Kane,'' 1941.
18. ``Made it, Ma! Top of the world!'', ``White Heat,'' 1949.
19. ``I'm as mad as hell, and I'm not going to take this anymore!'', ``Network,'' 1976.
20. ``Louis, I think this is the beginning of a beautiful friendship,'' ``Casablanca,'' 1942.
21. ``A census taker once tried to test me. I ate his liver with some fava beans and a nice Chianti,'' ``The Silence of the Lambs,'' 1991.
22. ``Bond. James Bond,'' ``Dr. No,'' 1962.
23. ``There's no place like home,'' ``The Wizard of Oz,'' 1939.
24. ``I am big! It's the pictures that got small,'' ``Sunset Blvd.,'' 1950.
25. ``Show me the money!'', ``Jerry Maguire,'' 1996.
26. ``Why don't you come up sometime and see me?'', ``She Done Him Wrong,'' 1933.
27. ``I'm walking here! I'm walking here!'', ``Midnight Cowboy,'' 1969.
28. ``Play it, Sam. Play 'As Time Goes By,''' ``Casablanca,'' 1942.
29. ``You can't handle the truth!'', ``A Few Good Men,'' 1992.
30. ``I want to be alone,'' ``Grand Hotel,'' 1932.
31. ``After all, tomorrow is another day!'', ``Gone With the Wind,'' 1939.
32. ``Round up the usual suspects,'' ``Casablanca,'' 1942.
33. ``I'll have what she's having,'' ``When Harry Met Sally...,'' 1989.
34. ``You know how to whistle, don't you, Steve? You just put your lips together and blow,'' ``To Have and Have Not,'' 1944.
35. ``You're gonna need a bigger boat,'' ``Jaws,'' 1975.
36. ``Badges? We ain't got no badges! We don't need no badges! I don't have to show you any stinking badges!'', ``The Treasure of the Sierra Madre,'' 1948.
37. ``I'll be back,'' ``The Terminator,'' 1984.
38. ``Today, I consider myself the luckiest man on the face of the earth,'' ``The Pride of the Yankees,'' 1942.
39. ``If you build it, he will come,'' ``Field of Dreams,'' 1989.
40. ``Mama always said life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get,'' ``Forrest Gump,'' 1994.
41. ``We rob banks,'' ``Bonnie and Clyde,'' 1967.
42. ``Plastics,'' ``The Graduate,'' 1967.
43. ``We'll always have Paris,'' ``Casablanca,'' 1942.
44. ``I see dead people,'' ``The Sixth Sense,'' 1999.
45. ``Stella! Hey, Stella!'', ``A Streetcar Named Desire,'' 1951.
46. ``Oh, Jerry, don't let's ask for the moon. We have the stars,'' ``Now, Voyager,'' 1942.
47. ``Shane. Shane. Come back!'', ``Shane,'' 1953.
48. ``Well, nobody's perfect,'' ``Some Like It Hot,'' 1959.
49. ``It's alive! It's alive!'', ``Frankenstein,'' 1931.
50. ``Houston, we have a problem,'' ``Apollo 13,'' 1995.
51. ``You've got to ask yourself one question: 'Do I feel lucky?' Well, do ya, punk?'', ``Dirty Harry,'' 1971.
52. ``You had me at `hello,''' ``Jerry Maguire,'' 1996.
53. ``One morning I shot an elephant in my pajamas. How he got in my pajamas, I don't know,'' ``Animal Crackers,'' 1930.
54. ``There's no crying in baseball!'', ``A League of Their Own,'' 1992.
55. ``La-dee-da, la-dee-da,'' ``Annie Hall,'' 1977.
56. ``A boy's best friend is his mother,'' ``Psycho,'' 1960.
57. ``Greed, for lack of a better word, is good,'' ``Wall Street,'' 1987.
58. ``Keep your friends close, but your enemies closer,'' ``The Godfather Part II,'' 1974.
59. ``As God is my witness, I'll never be hungry again,'' ``Gone With the Wind,'' 1939.
60. ``Well, here's another nice mess you've gotten me into!'', ``Sons of the Desert,'' 1933.
61. ``Say `hello' to my little friend!'', ``Scarface,'' 1983.
62. ``What a dump,'' ``Beyond the Forest,'' 1949.
63. ``Mrs. Robinson, you're trying to seduce me. Aren't you?'', ``The Graduate,'' 1967.
64. ``Gentlemen, you can't fight in here! This is the War Room!'', ``Dr. Strangelove,'' 1964.
65. ``Elementary, my dear Watson,'' ``The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes,'' 1929.
66. ``Get your stinking paws off me, you damned dirty ape,'' ``Planet of the Apes,'' 1968.
67. ``Of all the gin joints in all the towns in all the world, she walks into mine,'' ``Casablanca,'' 1942.
68. ``Here's Johnny!'', ``The Shining,'' 1980.
69. ``They're here!'', ``Poltergeist,'' 1982.
70. ``Is it safe?'', ``Marathon Man,'' 1976.
71. ``Wait a minute, wait a minute. You ain't heard nothin' yet!'', ``The Jazz Singer,'' 1927.
72. ``No wire hangers, ever!'', ``Mommie Dearest,'' 1981.
73. ``Mother of mercy, is this the end of Rico?'', ``Little Caesar,'' 1930.
74. ``Forget it, Jake, it's Chinatown,'' ``Chinatown,'' 1974.
75. ``I have always depended on the kindness of strangers,'' ``A Streetcar Named Desire,'' 1951.
76. ``Hasta la vista, baby,'' ``Terminator 2: Judgment Day,'' 1991.
77. ``Soylent Green is people!'', ``Soylent Green,'' 1973.
78. ``Open the pod bay doors, HAL,'' ``2001: A Space Odyssey,'' 1968.
79. Striker: ``Surely you can't be serious.'' Rumack: ``I am serious ... and don't call me Shirley,'' ``Airplane!'', 1980.
80. ``Yo, Adrian!'', ``Rocky,'' 1976.
81. ``Hello, gorgeous,'' ``Funny Girl,'' 1968.
82. ``Toga! Toga!'', ``National Lampoon's Animal House,'' 1978.
83. ``Listen to them. Children of the night. What music they make,'' ``Dracula,'' 1931.
84. ``Oh, no, it wasn't the airplanes. It was Beauty killed the Beast,'' ``King Kong,'' 1933.
85. ``My precious,'' ``The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers,'' 2002.
86. ``Attica! Attica!'', ``Dog Day Afternoon,'' 1975.
87. ``Sawyer, you're going out a youngster, but you've got to come back a star!'', ``42nd Street,'' 1933.
88. ``Listen to me, mister. You're my knight in shining armor. Don't you forget it. You're going to get back on that horse, and I'm going to be right behind you, holding on tight, and away we're gonna go, go, go!'', ``On Golden Pond,'' 1981.
89. ``Tell 'em to go out there with all they got and win just one for the Gipper,'' ``Knute Rockne, All American,'' 1940.
90. ``A martini. Shaken, not stirred,'' ``Goldfinger,'' 1964.
91. ``Who's on first,'' ``The Naughty Nineties,'' 1945.
92. ``Cinderella story. Outta nowhere. A former greenskeeper, now, about to become the Masters champion. It looks like a mirac ... It's in the hole! It's in the hole! It's in the hole!'', ``Caddyshack,'' 1980.
93. ``Life is a banquet, and most poor suckers are starving to death!'', ``Auntie Mame,'' 1958.
94. ``I feel the need - the need for speed!'', ``Top Gun,'' 1986.
95. ``Carpe diem. Seize the day, boys. Make your lives extraordinary,'' ``Dead Poets Society,'' 1989.
96. ``Snap out of it!'', ``Moonstruck,'' 1987.
97. ``My mother thanks you. My father thanks you. My sister thanks you. And I thank you,'' ``Yankee Doodle Dandy,'' 1942.
98. ``Nobody puts Baby in a corner,'' ``Dirty Dancing,'' 1987.
99. ``I'll get you, my pretty, and your little dog, too!'', ``The Wizard of Oz,'' 1939.
100. ``I'm king of the world!'', ``Titanic,'' 1997.

"Cry" by Lyfe Jennings

Hey Ya'll
Just taking the time today to give my daily post. Lately a lot has been on my mind and all I feel like doing is crying........So of course I took the lyrics to my favorite song right now and wanted to share them with you. If you haven't heard Lyfe's Cd you must listen to it! There are other songs that I love on this cd but this one has spoken to me in so many ways since the first day I heard it. I hope that you enjoy!
Jassy

I done had money
I done been broke
I done been talked about something awful
Done been lied on by so many folks
I done even been depressed at times and didn’t wanna cry cause my pride was too strong
But over the years I thought it over

(My favorite part of the song)
And after struggling for so long and still holding on
I figured, can’t be nothing all that wrong with crying
If anybody says that they’re that strong they’re lying
See crying is like taking your soul to the Laundromat

It’s like the feeling that you getwhen you see your Grand-mama smile
Or the heavens open up and blessing rain down
Go on child and cry
Go on and cry, cry, cry
We can cry together

See I done been a player
I done been played
I done went for some of the oldest tricks
from some of the coldest chicks God done ever made
Said I done even had a venereal disease
And didn’t wanna go to the clinic, all that attention embarrassing me
But over the years I’ve learned to understand
that I don’t really give a damn what nobody say, I’m a man and we cry
We can cry, we can cry, we can cry together

Talkin’ bout wo wo wo yea yea yea
They say a man ain’t supposed to cry
but I know, know, know
fasho’ sho’, sho’
that even men go through problems somtime cry

V

The only thing in my life so pure
The only thing that made me sure
The only thing I had as a woman
The only thing I had that made me pure
Until that day, the day when I gave it away---
not with someone special who loved me and cared for me
but with someone who took advantage of me being alone single and cold looking for something that would never be there
----Love ----
Yea right----just a hard ----
waiting to get into the next tight -----
just to claim and say he won his aim
another one gone
Not so pure Not so sure of the only thing that made her pure sure of who she was

my vent

my days are so long....when are they ever going to end my nights are so cold...when is that someone coming to hold me in their arms lonliness has become a way of life for me that I can`t seem to defeat isit me or does my soul wantto just love someone freely asit`s supposed to be......why does lifes plan not seem to go as u want when u want i guess, no i know that its because our lives belong to higher being who has the best interest in mind but when i look at the man in the mirror i dont feel like i see the best coming out of me but failure defeat a wanting to go forward but a brick wall that i cant seem to get pass....the past yes thats what im holding on to i just cant get pass that one thing that seemed to make me doubt the person i really am or question the person im supposed to be GOD please help me before i really turn out to be what u didn`t intend me to be

~Jassy As I Know Her~

Born in December of 1983
Her 21 years 6 months such and such days, hours, minutes and seconds of her life has been unclear to her (like a foggy day in San Francisco)
Unclear why she lives each day on this hell bound earth full of hurt, pain, sin, trials, tribulation, must she go on
—to do the will of the Most High God
The Wonderful, Mighty, Prince of Peace, Her Counselor, Her Comforter, Her Friend, she can go on and on………
Wondering how she is supposed to live the life God has ordained for her to live. Being a single mother who works hard each and everyday to make a better life for her and her daughter
And yet has the hardest time completely trusting that God will make a way
Why?
She doubts, she fears, she doesn’t trust, she doesn’t believe that one day all the negative things in her life will be gone away….FOREVER
Yea her favorite color may be orange
Yes her favorite food chicken
Yea she’s a Sagittarius
Yes her favorite song right now is “Cry” by Lyfe Jennings
Yea she likes to shop and be trendy
Yes her favorite scripture is Proverbs 3:5-6
Yea she loves intellectual conversation
Yes this all things are simple things about her life, her struggles, alone they don’t define her, who she is or who she’s going to be.
Only the plan that the Most High GOD she serves will determine that final factor of her life when His will is done here on earth in her life as He would have it to be…..

There’s more……..

YO Bloggers!

Yo wassup! Havent been doing this blog thing lately but I believe I am about to start back up. Life has been very boring and thought have been going heavily. I'm not much of a poet but I love to express my feelings. Whether it makes sense to me or to you! I hope that you enjoy what I have to share. Some may be funny....yea you can laugh...some may be sad...yea you can cry or if you just have suggestion that might improve what I'm doing that would be nice as well.

Until the next piece....PEACE

Jassy