my vent

my days are so long....when are they ever going to end my nights are so cold...when is that someone coming to hold me in their arms lonliness has become a way of life for me that I can`t seem to defeat isit me or does my soul wantto just love someone freely asit`s supposed to be......why does lifes plan not seem to go as u want when u want i guess, no i know that its because our lives belong to higher being who has the best interest in mind but when i look at the man in the mirror i dont feel like i see the best coming out of me but failure defeat a wanting to go forward but a brick wall that i cant seem to get pass....the past yes thats what im holding on to i just cant get pass that one thing that seemed to make me doubt the person i really am or question the person im supposed to be GOD please help me before i really turn out to be what u didn`t intend me to be