So I’m finally embarking on my New Year’s resolution to be “Fine in 09”. I decided last week that I would make up in my mind to start working out and eating better. Last night, I made that step and attended a kickboxing class with one of my new friends. She like me cares about her appearance in every way so for me that’s very encouraging for what I’m trying to get back to in my life.
I was talking to a dear friend and photographer who I hung with heavily during my period of modeling. I mentioned to him that I was thinking about making a come back. Needless to say he just laughed. Of course I was offended and I asked, “You don’t think I can make a come back?" His reply, “The question is not can you make a come back, it’s will you?” So for me that was a challenge.
The following day I decided to read my horoscope, which isn’t a normal part of my day. I think I did it because someone around me just so happened to mention hers so I decided to see what mind would say. After reading the paragraph, that was it. I knew what I needed to do and it was time. It said something like this: Contrary to what you think of yourself, you are a very special and unique person and there is no one else like you. *I agreed with that.* Then it went on to say….Go ahead and do that thing that your friend said that you wouldn’t do. Take this time to prove them wrong.
All I could say was WOW….I have to do it. So I started it last night with kickboxing class and here I am a day later sore and can’t even walk UP the stairs.
Its okay, after a night of soaking in Epsom salt, I’ll be ready to go again tomorrow.
Jassy B.
Wednesday, September 02, 2009
Non-Maternal Moment
Being a mother is such a wonderful thing!!!! Everything you do is centered on this one way of life. No matter, what you do, what you say or how you feel, you will always and forever are a mother. With that in mind, I was having what I thought was a non maternal moment, yes a moment where I thought for the next 2 hours I am not a mother. Not because I dislike being a mother but because I just don’t have the times like I had last Thursday night. Me and a few of my fellow co-workers decided we would head out for a night on the town at a local bar that is known to be quite the place to hang out on Thursday nights. I was just saying how good the drink special of the night, the $5 margarita was on point and how I was about to indulge in a second drink when my phone begins to vibrate my hind parts. While, I could have had my phone in my purse, I had it in my back pocket because in the back of my mind I was having maternal thoughts and I also knew that my children were only a phone call away in my hind pocket. At first, I thought it was my imagination that I felt the vibration but then I felt it again. Lo and behold the caller id says, “Hubby”. Now if I’m out with the girls my husband is very good about not calling me unless there is what he calls an emergency. In this case, it was. In a loud bar of music, I can only hear blah, blah, blah, wah, wah, as I say HUH, I CAN’T HEAR YOU, WAIT A MINUTE, LET ME WALK OUT!!!!!!
So this is the conversation when I get outside to hear:
Me: “Ok, what’s up?” My thoughts, “This better be good.”
Hubby: “Can you stop by the store and get some tape on the way home?
Me: “We have tape. Didn’t you just tell me the other day there was some packing tape there? Can’t that work?”
Hubby: “No, not for this.” Avoiding right out telling me what’s going on.
Me: “Well, what do you need the tape for?
Hubby: “For our eldest child.”
Me: “Okay, what is she doing that she needs tape?”
Hubby: “It’s not what she’s doing; it’s what she’s done.”
Me: “Ok, again what is it.”
Hubby: “Well, she had a little accident. She was running in the house, when I told her to stop and then she comes in the kitchen, not saying a word only to lift her foot up and there is blood and no toenail.”
So there went my night out with the girls without husbands or children. Needless to say I had that second drink because he seemed to have everything under control and I didn’t know when this non-maternal moment would come again. It really didn’t do any good because in the back of my mind all I could do was think of my baby and her toe, so I had to leave and get that tape. LOL…..
Gotta love husbands and children!
Jassy B.
So this is the conversation when I get outside to hear:
Me: “Ok, what’s up?” My thoughts, “This better be good.”
Hubby: “Can you stop by the store and get some tape on the way home?
Me: “We have tape. Didn’t you just tell me the other day there was some packing tape there? Can’t that work?”
Hubby: “No, not for this.” Avoiding right out telling me what’s going on.
Me: “Well, what do you need the tape for?
Hubby: “For our eldest child.”
Me: “Okay, what is she doing that she needs tape?”
Hubby: “It’s not what she’s doing; it’s what she’s done.”
Me: “Ok, again what is it.”
Hubby: “Well, she had a little accident. She was running in the house, when I told her to stop and then she comes in the kitchen, not saying a word only to lift her foot up and there is blood and no toenail.”
So there went my night out with the girls without husbands or children. Needless to say I had that second drink because he seemed to have everything under control and I didn’t know when this non-maternal moment would come again. It really didn’t do any good because in the back of my mind all I could do was think of my baby and her toe, so I had to leave and get that tape. LOL…..
Gotta love husbands and children!
Jassy B.
Friday, August 28, 2009
JB's Epiphany
My Fellow Blogger/Readers,I know that it's been a while but sometimes some of my best posts are those where I've been away for awhile and had some experiences to write on.So recently, well a month a go, I had an epiphany about my life. Yes, a great manifestation not just about my life but the life of all mankind. I realized that going through a rough time in life didn't have to be as rough as I had allowed it to be. I began to think of people who take their entire lives and prepare for major storms that they know may possibly come their way. They build storm shelters that can turn into a living quarter for a temporary amount of time. They buy first aid kits and storm radios and enough food and water to feed the multitude. Others may think that these people go beyond the call of duty for being prepared and are crazy for getting all of these things in order for a major disaster and they think things won't ever get too bad for someone to create an entire house underground for them to live in if something happens. They prepare and they are ready. . . well about as ready as they can be.
Then you have those who will have a pantry full of food, water, a storm radio and will have and do just enough to get by if something does happen.Then you have those who really don't believe that anything is going to happen to them and they are in no way, form or fashion prepared for the disaster that is about to take place in their lives.
Well guess what, for the past year of my life, I have been that person that believes nothing was going to happen to them and I was never prepared for what was about to come. If one could even think of their lives as the weather, you never know what the forecast is going to be for the day, week, month or the year. Anything can change from one minute to the next. While we have meteorologist who are supposed to keep us up to date with changes, they many times report what they "think" is going to happen but they may not necessarily be sure. My life recently has been full of storms that I was NOT prepared for.
**Side note-I think the current economic situation can be an example of a major disaster for all struggling Americans.**
While I may not know what major or minor storm is going to come my way, I do know that I can be prepared for it. God has he equipped us with resources to be prepared for things and I'm definitely using them next time. I'm going to take a new approach and make a better life for myself and those around me. As for now, I hope that my forecast is clear until I get past my first phase of preparation.
Jassy B.L.
Jassy B.L.
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
An Ending I’ll Never Forget
Growing up as a young child I was always a favorite of my mother and her side of the family
Because I didn’t have the likings of my father’s side I never really fit into their country, ghetto ways of which I didn’t really want to associate self with
Which led self to the bottom of the grandchild totem pole to slave like Cinderella to get only a payment of a dollar in return
Not that I had an evil step sister but a well liked blood sister who looked walked smelled and had my grandmother’s being
Chick didn’t have to do a thang but eat sleep and be merry unlike I Cinderella who had to pray on the day my fairy godmother would come and save me from this favoritism madness
If I didn’t call to say hello, I was the evil stuck up grandchild who just didn’t have time for her grandmother
If I didn’t run to her rescue at the drop of a dime I was the lazy grandchild who didn’t do anything she was asked of
If I didn’t wake up in the middle of the night at her every beck and sick call I was the grandchild who was going miss her or better yet not care when the rolled her out of this world
Years of unspoken relationship regretted by I wanting to be the better person I ended it after a new life was born into the family
The favoritism begins again
To my advantage this time because I bore a beautiful high yellow fine baby that she adored
A bond we then began to share all because of my seed, she loved her
In her last days she continuously called for us to come and see her and spend time with her and with no hesitation did I think twice because all attention I once wanted from her was beginning to be surreal
I took it as it came, whether she wanted me to be her slave or her roommate I did it all just to have her attention that I always wanted
To clear things up the moment she left I never thought she wouldn’t return
Her home became the a room away from home and when everything began to look up is when it all began to turn for the worse
Now the fine baby really never paid her any attention until her last days
It was the last day that she sat in her arms without a fuss or moan but only in peace as a new born lamb laying under his mother
It was at that moment that I knew that I would be the one to miss her when they rolled her out of this world
At that moment it began to hurt
All the bonding we’d mended over the past 6 months was just getting to where I wanted it to be but all of a sudden it ended
After my early morning class I heard my inner voice say that it was nearing the end
At that sound I knew that I couldn’t go on with my day without saying my own personal goodbyes because I knew that in my heart I didn’t have long
Alone I stood in the final resting place and like a zombie she barely looked at me
At some point she was trying to tell me something but it was at that moment I began to say it’s ok
All is well, I’m sorry, it’s your time and whatever else that came to mind
All of me wanted her there for me to see me finish and be the success that she always wanted me to be but for all the 17 years of my life I only knew the bed stricken grandmother and nothing more
I accepted it
The end came to no surprise for me, the staff tried lying to me to get me home safely but on the way home I heard that inner voice again say
It’s over
Walking to the door I blacked out fainted lost consciousness hell an outer body experience because it was the confirmation from my mother that I wasn’t ready for
But then again I thought the preparation of our final meeting had prepared me but yet I still have trouble 5 years later dealing with
The ending I’ll never forget
Because I didn’t have the likings of my father’s side I never really fit into their country, ghetto ways of which I didn’t really want to associate self with
Which led self to the bottom of the grandchild totem pole to slave like Cinderella to get only a payment of a dollar in return
Not that I had an evil step sister but a well liked blood sister who looked walked smelled and had my grandmother’s being
Chick didn’t have to do a thang but eat sleep and be merry unlike I Cinderella who had to pray on the day my fairy godmother would come and save me from this favoritism madness
If I didn’t call to say hello, I was the evil stuck up grandchild who just didn’t have time for her grandmother
If I didn’t run to her rescue at the drop of a dime I was the lazy grandchild who didn’t do anything she was asked of
If I didn’t wake up in the middle of the night at her every beck and sick call I was the grandchild who was going miss her or better yet not care when the rolled her out of this world
Years of unspoken relationship regretted by I wanting to be the better person I ended it after a new life was born into the family
The favoritism begins again
To my advantage this time because I bore a beautiful high yellow fine baby that she adored
A bond we then began to share all because of my seed, she loved her
In her last days she continuously called for us to come and see her and spend time with her and with no hesitation did I think twice because all attention I once wanted from her was beginning to be surreal
I took it as it came, whether she wanted me to be her slave or her roommate I did it all just to have her attention that I always wanted
To clear things up the moment she left I never thought she wouldn’t return
Her home became the a room away from home and when everything began to look up is when it all began to turn for the worse
Now the fine baby really never paid her any attention until her last days
It was the last day that she sat in her arms without a fuss or moan but only in peace as a new born lamb laying under his mother
It was at that moment that I knew that I would be the one to miss her when they rolled her out of this world
At that moment it began to hurt
All the bonding we’d mended over the past 6 months was just getting to where I wanted it to be but all of a sudden it ended
After my early morning class I heard my inner voice say that it was nearing the end
At that sound I knew that I couldn’t go on with my day without saying my own personal goodbyes because I knew that in my heart I didn’t have long
Alone I stood in the final resting place and like a zombie she barely looked at me
At some point she was trying to tell me something but it was at that moment I began to say it’s ok
All is well, I’m sorry, it’s your time and whatever else that came to mind
All of me wanted her there for me to see me finish and be the success that she always wanted me to be but for all the 17 years of my life I only knew the bed stricken grandmother and nothing more
I accepted it
The end came to no surprise for me, the staff tried lying to me to get me home safely but on the way home I heard that inner voice again say
It’s over
Walking to the door I blacked out fainted lost consciousness hell an outer body experience because it was the confirmation from my mother that I wasn’t ready for
But then again I thought the preparation of our final meeting had prepared me but yet I still have trouble 5 years later dealing with
The ending I’ll never forget
Nebraska State Senator Sues God
Just when I thought things couldn't get any more crazier, I came across this. True evidence of us being in the last days........He apparently doesn't have enough to do in the Senate.
By NATE JENKINS Associated Press Writer
LINCOLN, Neb. (AP) -- The defendant in a state senator's lawsuit is accused of causing untold death and horror and threatening to cause more still. He can be sued in Douglas County, the legislator claims, because He's everywhere.
State Sen. Ernie Chambers sued God last week. Angered by another lawsuit he considers frivolous, Chambers says he's trying to make the point that anybody can file a lawsuit against anybody.
Chambers says in his lawsuit that God has made terroristic threats against the senator and his constituents, inspired fear and caused "widespread death, destruction and terrorization of millions upon millions of the Earth's inhabitants."
The Omaha senator, who skips morning prayers during the legislative session and often criticizes Christians, also says God has caused "fearsome floods ... horrendous hurricanes, terrifying tornadoes."
He's seeking a permanent injunction against the Almighty.
Chambers said the lawsuit was triggered by a federal suit filed against a judge who recently barred words such as "rape" and "victim" from a sexual assault trial.
Chambers said the lawsuit was triggered by a federal suit filed against a judge who recently barred words such as "rape" and "victim" from a sexual assault trial.
The accuser in the criminal case, Tory Bowen, sued Lancaster District Judge Jeffre Cheuvront, claiming that he violated her free speech rights.
Chambers said Bowen's lawsuit is inappropriate because the Nebraska Supreme Court has already considered the case and federal courts follow the decisions of state supreme courts on state matters.
"This lawsuit having been filed and being of such questionable merit creates a circumstance where my lawsuit is appropriately filed," Chambers said. "People might call it frivolous but if they read it they'll see there are very serious issues I have raised."
U.S. District Judge Richard Kopf, in an order last week, expressed doubts about whether Bowen's lawsuit "has any legal basis whatsoever" and said sanctions may be imposed against Bowen and her attorneys if they fail to show cause for the lawsuit.
The Associated Press usually does not identify accusers in sex-assault cases, but Bowen has allowed her name to be used publicly because of the issue over the judge's language restrictions.
Cheuvront declared a mistrial in the sexual assault trial in July, saying pretrial publicity made it impossible to gather enough impartial jurors.
Thursday, September 13, 2007
The Way I feel about MY LiFe. . .
Thanks Cleansing Your Thoughts for posting this......
Unknown
Maybe I have to go through....
the same situation to understand it...
In the past few years of my life, due to my teenage experiences and seeing the society that the young women of today are growing up in, I've developed this soft place in my heart for mentoring young girls who've grown up with various personal issues in their lives. Now, growing up as a teenage girl with low self-esteem and a need of attention I placed myself into some situations that could have been avoided. Now as I look back at them I'm grateful that I experienced certain things and made it through unharmed. I've learned that many young girls haven't been as fortunate as I have and a lot of them weren't put in those situations because they allowed themselves to but because they had no control of their lives or environments.
I have this little project....we'll call her Project C. I met Project C about 6 months ago and immediately took a liking to her and her sweet spirit. She took a liking to me as well and began to open up to me and let me know her inner most life secrets, fears, traumas and family situations. She comes from a situation where both parents have been of no benefit to her, ONLY HARM but she has the love and nurturing of a close family member who loves her and gives her he world. Now, if I were Project C I would be taking full advantage of that love, attention and lavish lifestyle that she's getting....but Noooooooooo!!! She wants to go back to a lifestyle of harm and hurt.
I feel kind of bad because I haven't talked with her in about two months but the last time her loved one contacted me, she gave me rave reviews on Project C and said that things were going great with her at home. I was so proud and I continued to let her know that anytime she needed me, I would be there. Well this morning, I went to get me a Mt. Dew to get my swagger going and I saw the loved one in tears. I work at a place where at any given moment you can see anyone you know and theY could be around for any type of family situation you can think of. The loved one was distraught. She began to pour her heart out to me and let me know that things weren't ok anymore....
Now I guess I'll never understand because I haven't had any TRUE TRARAMATIC experiences in my life. I've heard that Project C wants to go back to the horrific life that she had with her Father. Why? Obviously she's very unappreciative of the "new" life that she has and she doesn't like structure from the sounds of it.....Maybe I can listen to her and help her to reason with herself. I think I'm going to call her today and maybe take her to dinner tomorrow. Pick up where I left off........I don't want to preach to her but I want to listen and see what's going on with her brain......maybe with her listening to herself will show her that she doesn't need to open up old wounds only to let them get all infected and torn up again.......
In the past few years of my life, due to my teenage experiences and seeing the society that the young women of today are growing up in, I've developed this soft place in my heart for mentoring young girls who've grown up with various personal issues in their lives. Now, growing up as a teenage girl with low self-esteem and a need of attention I placed myself into some situations that could have been avoided. Now as I look back at them I'm grateful that I experienced certain things and made it through unharmed. I've learned that many young girls haven't been as fortunate as I have and a lot of them weren't put in those situations because they allowed themselves to but because they had no control of their lives or environments.
I have this little project....we'll call her Project C. I met Project C about 6 months ago and immediately took a liking to her and her sweet spirit. She took a liking to me as well and began to open up to me and let me know her inner most life secrets, fears, traumas and family situations. She comes from a situation where both parents have been of no benefit to her, ONLY HARM but she has the love and nurturing of a close family member who loves her and gives her he world. Now, if I were Project C I would be taking full advantage of that love, attention and lavish lifestyle that she's getting....but Noooooooooo!!! She wants to go back to a lifestyle of harm and hurt.
I feel kind of bad because I haven't talked with her in about two months but the last time her loved one contacted me, she gave me rave reviews on Project C and said that things were going great with her at home. I was so proud and I continued to let her know that anytime she needed me, I would be there. Well this morning, I went to get me a Mt. Dew to get my swagger going and I saw the loved one in tears. I work at a place where at any given moment you can see anyone you know and theY could be around for any type of family situation you can think of. The loved one was distraught. She began to pour her heart out to me and let me know that things weren't ok anymore....
Now I guess I'll never understand because I haven't had any TRUE TRARAMATIC experiences in my life. I've heard that Project C wants to go back to the horrific life that she had with her Father. Why? Obviously she's very unappreciative of the "new" life that she has and she doesn't like structure from the sounds of it.....Maybe I can listen to her and help her to reason with herself. I think I'm going to call her today and maybe take her to dinner tomorrow. Pick up where I left off........I don't want to preach to her but I want to listen and see what's going on with her brain......maybe with her listening to herself will show her that she doesn't need to open up old wounds only to let them get all infected and torn up again.......
Monday, September 10, 2007
Jas's Weekend Sports Review of My Fav Teams...
In my beginning years of life, the only things that were known to me were family, education and SPORTS!!!! Growing up the daughter of a sports fanatic it became a huge part of my life. There was never a dull weekend for me. Each season of sports my Dad did something in relation to it. Football season, he coached football; softball season, he played on a local softball team, basketball season, he referees so it just never ends with him. Now the basis for this intro comes to my favorite sport being football. I get very excited about football season as well as the other citizens and residents of the State of Alabama. Whether it's little league, high school or college football. On to my weekend sports review of my favorite teams....
I am still a huge fan of my high school football team and I tend to follow their football season pretty good and attend their games. This year our rival team game came very early in the year. It was the second game in the season. We have transitioned once again to a new coach and apparently he hasn't realized how important winning the game against the school 5 minutes away from us is. Not only is the school down the street and around the corner but their present football coach is our former football coach that led us to a State Championshop Victory. For the past 4 years, we have won. This year's t-shirt's slogan was, "Fear the thumb." Well apparently this year they had nothing to fear. They beat us by two points. Our defense was tired and the offense ran the same play throughout the entire game. Enough of that, I'm getting mad all over again...ugh...
http://www.al.com/sports/birminghamnews/index.ssf?/base/sports/1189240774107990.xml&coll=2
Now for my favorite college football team. Living in the state of Alabama you grow up being a fan of either Alabama or Auburn. Well in my path of growing up my parents were Auburn fans and I also grew to be a fan as well. Well here lately,they have been a disappointment as well. We started off the season last week barely with a win. This week we go into overtime against S. Florida and LOSE 26-23!!!! Ughh.....MAD!!!!!
http://blog.al.com/goldmine/
Now for the NFL season opener between the Colts and the Saints!!! It's was a wonderful night. The Colts did not disappoint me one bit. I have to admit that the first quarter of the game I was a little worried but once we got in our groove, it didn't stop. The opened the season with a 41-10 win over the Saints. I don't think there is much more I can say about that. The score speaks for itself.
http://www.colts.com/sub.cfm?page=article7&news_id=5bbb9438-579e-4f47-a4e2-0ebd6f6adb7e
I am still a huge fan of my high school football team and I tend to follow their football season pretty good and attend their games. This year our rival team game came very early in the year. It was the second game in the season. We have transitioned once again to a new coach and apparently he hasn't realized how important winning the game against the school 5 minutes away from us is. Not only is the school down the street and around the corner but their present football coach is our former football coach that led us to a State Championshop Victory. For the past 4 years, we have won. This year's t-shirt's slogan was, "Fear the thumb." Well apparently this year they had nothing to fear. They beat us by two points. Our defense was tired and the offense ran the same play throughout the entire game. Enough of that, I'm getting mad all over again...ugh...
http://www.al.com/sports/birminghamnews/index.ssf?/base/sports/1189240774107990.xml&coll=2
Now for my favorite college football team. Living in the state of Alabama you grow up being a fan of either Alabama or Auburn. Well in my path of growing up my parents were Auburn fans and I also grew to be a fan as well. Well here lately,they have been a disappointment as well. We started off the season last week barely with a win. This week we go into overtime against S. Florida and LOSE 26-23!!!! Ughh.....MAD!!!!!
http://blog.al.com/goldmine/
Now for the NFL season opener between the Colts and the Saints!!! It's was a wonderful night. The Colts did not disappoint me one bit. I have to admit that the first quarter of the game I was a little worried but once we got in our groove, it didn't stop. The opened the season with a 41-10 win over the Saints. I don't think there is much more I can say about that. The score speaks for itself.
http://www.colts.com/sub.cfm?page=article7&news_id=5bbb9438-579e-4f47-a4e2-0ebd6f6adb7e
Friday, September 07, 2007
In my CD Player...
I think this CD is a must have to your collection! Chrisette Michelle is an artist who makes me realize that there is still good music to be made. Her unique voice and eclectic sound makes you want more!!!
Other Familiar songs that she's been featured in include:
Jay Z's "Lost One
Nas's "Can't Forget About You
In addition to buying the CD you must see her in concert. This weekend I saw her open up for MusiqSoulchild and I really enjoyed her performance. As I've said before, her voice is amazing. The studio is doing NO work for her. It's all genuine. Her performance really put me in the mood for love. If she's coming your way be sure to check her out!!! If not, you'll miss a treat. . .
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
Quote....
Every now and again I may come across a quote that I would like to share; here is one for you.
"To carry a grudge is like being stung to death by one bee."God is Love
Rev Run
My Friend has Read me...
Here lately I've been feeling a bit out of place in my life and in my relationships. I've had friends that I've been around for a long time but I feel as if I don't fit in anymore. One of my dear and close friends who I hang out with all the time has really paid attention to me and figured out my feelings. When I read this it was like reading what I would have written to a tee. I was telling him about how much he's brought out of me in the past year and I was thanking him for helping me grow and these are his thoughts...
"I continue to see even more in you. It's funny too because it's almost like you are caught in between. And maybe I am biased or just am way off base and have no idea what I am talking about, but it's like in the past year you have outgrown your girls - who you normally kick it with and they are still in a mind set of where you were last year. Not saying it is due to me - but I think because of a lot that we have done together in this past year - plus your already high level of maturity, you have just started to reach your true potentials. And I think you know you are just at another level right now....and I think that confuses you too. Dont want to leave the group behind - nor do you have a new group so to speak to run with - so you kinda stuck in the middle. Doing things with the old just to maintain relationships (I am not saying at all that they are not good - just that the interests are so different) but still searching for newer things to accomodate your growth."
He couldn't have said it any more perfectly than I could have...
"I continue to see even more in you. It's funny too because it's almost like you are caught in between. And maybe I am biased or just am way off base and have no idea what I am talking about, but it's like in the past year you have outgrown your girls - who you normally kick it with and they are still in a mind set of where you were last year. Not saying it is due to me - but I think because of a lot that we have done together in this past year - plus your already high level of maturity, you have just started to reach your true potentials. And I think you know you are just at another level right now....and I think that confuses you too. Dont want to leave the group behind - nor do you have a new group so to speak to run with - so you kinda stuck in the middle. Doing things with the old just to maintain relationships (I am not saying at all that they are not good - just that the interests are so different) but still searching for newer things to accomodate your growth."
He couldn't have said it any more perfectly than I could have...
So behind...
I'm so far behind on my blogging more than I really want to be. I've been anxious to sit down and write but haven't had much time lately. After a long weekend, being tired and not having anything to do at work right now I figured I could conjure up one or two things to write about. In the past few weeks so many things have happened in my life. I've realized that every time I've tried to further myself and accomplish a goal that's when everything that could go wrong goes wrong. As my grandmother used to say, "If it ain't one thing it's two." I anxiously decided that I was going to get back in school to finish my undergraduate degree. I wanted to wait until January but I just couldn't help myself. In the midst of my decision, I knew that I would have to somehow come up with a few hundred dollars to pay my tuition and I was prepared for that. Right when that time came along, something else came up and I ended up having to come up with money for tuition & something that unexpectantly came up. Depressed I awas because my motivation was all gone but the inner man inside of me didn't let me give up and I'm glad that it didn't. After being dropped from the class for non-payment I went through tons of trouble to get added back to the class but my inner determination never let me give up. Now I'm another class toward a degree. . . . .
Thursday, August 30, 2007
A must have for me....
Recently I said to myself that I would start making my post to fit more of my personality, style and every day life. One of my biggest fetishes is SHOES!!!! Yes, they say that's something all women love but I think I am an exception because it's I have a ridiculous fetish for them. Anyways...so I'm walking in Macy's today during my lunch time and I check out the new fall shoes they have on display. Over the past year I've become a huge fan of Jessica Simpson's shoes. So here is the new pair that I HAVE TO HAVE!!!!
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Slides.....
This weekend I had the most fun with some of my cousins and friends that I hadn't hung out with in months. It's something about being in relationships that hinder you from wanting or having time to spend time with those who came before them. Oh well...go figure on that thought.
N T WAYS....
My weekend started on Thursday with a Carl Thomas concert that was well worth the 10.00 I paid. I only wanted to hear my favorite songs from the Emotional CD and I got just that plus three other songs that I wasn't very interested in hearing. But through it all I had a wonderful time. Much love to Carl Thomas. Before Carl Thomas comes out for his performance the DJ hypes the crowd up by playing ol skool songs and then telling us that after CT's performance he would be playing all of the slide songs and he definitely did just that. Now I don't know about most people but outside of socializing going to the club the next thing we go for is to do the slides. You can always count on looking on the dance floor and seeing me there. One thing that irritates me with the slides are there is always one person in the bunch who doesn't seem to know it and always throws off someone else. It makes it even worse when they are standing next to me and bumping into me. That really gets my blood to boiling then. Oh well, I guess it's just one of those things I'll have to get used to. I guess my point is there are some who still can't do the electric slide and it's been out for decades.....get a grip people. Get on YOU TUBE and figure out the dance steps. . . .
I'll post more on my weekend later....
N T WAYS....
My weekend started on Thursday with a Carl Thomas concert that was well worth the 10.00 I paid. I only wanted to hear my favorite songs from the Emotional CD and I got just that plus three other songs that I wasn't very interested in hearing. But through it all I had a wonderful time. Much love to Carl Thomas. Before Carl Thomas comes out for his performance the DJ hypes the crowd up by playing ol skool songs and then telling us that after CT's performance he would be playing all of the slide songs and he definitely did just that. Now I don't know about most people but outside of socializing going to the club the next thing we go for is to do the slides. You can always count on looking on the dance floor and seeing me there. One thing that irritates me with the slides are there is always one person in the bunch who doesn't seem to know it and always throws off someone else. It makes it even worse when they are standing next to me and bumping into me. That really gets my blood to boiling then. Oh well, I guess it's just one of those things I'll have to get used to. I guess my point is there are some who still can't do the electric slide and it's been out for decades.....get a grip people. Get on YOU TUBE and figure out the dance steps. . . .
I'll post more on my weekend later....
Sunday, August 19, 2007
Ending.....Now Beginning
After the week I had last week I really needed laughter in my life. I can always count on my daughter to bring that to me. It's a wonderful thing to have children around because they are so blunt and don't think twice about the things they are going to say. Today before her godfather and I took her to the park, she preceeded to tell him that he needed to marry me because I really needed him in my life right now. Ha ha ha ha....
How is a 6 yr old going to tell me that I need a man??? The interesting thing is that's not the first time she's mentioned him marrying me. She previously made a comment when we were meeting the girl he was dating at the time about a year ago. During our dinner conversations she told Rebekah that Uncle Shawn wasn't her boyfriend but Uncle Shawn was her mommy's man. WOW....how embarrassed were me and Uncle Shawn for her to have said that during this first time we've met Rebekah.
So now I just await that third time when she makes another comment regarding the marriage to her Uncle Shawn.....then he'll be the infamous Uncle Daddy Shawn.....
Kids....gotta lov em.
How is a 6 yr old going to tell me that I need a man??? The interesting thing is that's not the first time she's mentioned him marrying me. She previously made a comment when we were meeting the girl he was dating at the time about a year ago. During our dinner conversations she told Rebekah that Uncle Shawn wasn't her boyfriend but Uncle Shawn was her mommy's man. WOW....how embarrassed were me and Uncle Shawn for her to have said that during this first time we've met Rebekah.
So now I just await that third time when she makes another comment regarding the marriage to her Uncle Shawn.....then he'll be the infamous Uncle Daddy Shawn.....
Kids....gotta lov em.
Thursday, August 16, 2007
Just ok....
Life for me right now is just OK. I never thought I would describe the past few days of my life as sad and blue. Those are descriptions for "blues" songs and my life is just not that. I've let go of someone in my life and I don't necessarily know if it was the right decision or not. In some cases, I feel as if a burden has been lifted off of me but then in other aspects I feel like I've just ruined my life, my heart and soul. The more I think about the situation, maybe he wasn't in God's will for my life but I definitely had emotional ties to him. I guess I'm just going to have to pray and move on from it. What's done is done. Now I must pick my heart & feelings up and continue on with life. . .
Still emotional *tear*
My daughter started first grade on Monday and even though this is her third year of being in a school environment, I'm still having problems as a mother letting go of my baby. The second day of school I walked her to her classroom (after she asked that I not) and after walking her across the street holding her hand, she let go once she was safe enough to walk on her own. Then she begins to speed walk into the school and doesn't look back. I tell her to have a good day and she throws her hand up and says absolutely nothing! I guess I'm overacting as a parent. But my baby!!!! Oh well......
On a higher note, I applied to a local community college so that I can get back in school mode and take some classes to achieve my goal of getting a bachelors degree. Well I was accepted and now I'm going through the proper channels to get myself registered and into A class. YEA FOR ME!!!!
So now I'm going to take this alone time to really try and reach a deeper side of myself. Travel around the states, visit some friends and continue to make my business a success.
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Still emotional *tear*
My daughter started first grade on Monday and even though this is her third year of being in a school environment, I'm still having problems as a mother letting go of my baby. The second day of school I walked her to her classroom (after she asked that I not) and after walking her across the street holding her hand, she let go once she was safe enough to walk on her own. Then she begins to speed walk into the school and doesn't look back. I tell her to have a good day and she throws her hand up and says absolutely nothing! I guess I'm overacting as a parent. But my baby!!!! Oh well......
On a higher note, I applied to a local community college so that I can get back in school mode and take some classes to achieve my goal of getting a bachelors degree. Well I was accepted and now I'm going through the proper channels to get myself registered and into A class. YEA FOR ME!!!!
So now I'm going to take this alone time to really try and reach a deeper side of myself. Travel around the states, visit some friends and continue to make my business a success.
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Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Forreal this time...I'm sticking to it.
3 years and some odd months ago I started this blog to share my life with the world. Easily you guys have held up your part of the bargain to be readers but I haven't upheld mine as the author of this blog spot. I can't promise that I will be consistent but I will definitely try to share as much as I can as I become a better person. As I was reflected back on the years before, I sat down today to read my blog. From November of 2004 to August 2007 a lot of things have changed in my life. I've watched myself evolve into a better mother, a diva, a model, an entrepreneur and so many other things I never imagined Jasmine to be. If I didn't have past life situations I wouldn't be who I am today. Enough of that....
Hopefully I will be able to bring you guys up to speed on my life, continuing share interesting stories, posting my poetry (that I haven't written in forever) and posting quotes, funnies & inspirational thoughts that help me continue my day.
Presently I am 23 years of age and my daughter is now 6 going on 26. *smirk* I am an administrative assistant for the county and I recently started my own business.
As time goes along I will be sure to let you know the more in depth versions of the StoneColdFoxx....
Hopefully I will be able to bring you guys up to speed on my life, continuing share interesting stories, posting my poetry (that I haven't written in forever) and posting quotes, funnies & inspirational thoughts that help me continue my day.
Presently I am 23 years of age and my daughter is now 6 going on 26. *smirk* I am an administrative assistant for the county and I recently started my own business.
As time goes along I will be sure to let you know the more in depth versions of the StoneColdFoxx....
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
My New Life
So it's been a while since I've posted here and I think it's about time I start getting on this thing at least once a week. Lately my life has changed in quite a few ways and writing makes me feel a little better about life and my decisions. To share with others what I think and feel and in turn get your response on my thoughts. Oh well....We'll just see how this goes....Enjoy!
Thursday, September 22, 2005
J
the joy in your few days of sorry that made me desire to know more about the joy that gently smiled through tears he couldn't hide
the angel in me shone bright to form a connection that will be an everlasting bond between the souls of ones both grieved but a fond love and job created
to replace the missed
to multiply
and form more of a passion
to know and yearn for life to share in
the angel in me shone bright to form a connection that will be an everlasting bond between the souls of ones both grieved but a fond love and job created
to replace the missed
to multiply
and form more of a passion
to know and yearn for life to share in
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
deeper
deeper than any hole
a deeper understanding of how something so deep
can be free and hurtful at the same time
it calms and soothes the biggest bruises
simple enough but complex beyond some of
the easiest principle given to mankind but
yet made so hard dealing with different types of heartaches and pain
sunshine and rain
it devotes so much inner being and yet isn't taken as serious
as it should be
commonly written about
rarely lived by those who say and say they feel its real
july 05
a deeper understanding of how something so deep
can be free and hurtful at the same time
it calms and soothes the biggest bruises
simple enough but complex beyond some of
the easiest principle given to mankind but
yet made so hard dealing with different types of heartaches and pain
sunshine and rain
it devotes so much inner being and yet isn't taken as serious
as it should be
commonly written about
rarely lived by those who say and say they feel its real
july 05
cv moon cv
that moon
shines bright high above the tree
glowing on the body so heavenly
never so beautiful and bright
did the revelation of my life
move from behind the branches
as a mask only to reveal
the true feeling of life & love
that moment
shone bright
through the tree beyond
what should have been days brough out of me
a feeling never to be felt again by me
but a knowing of my feelings value and how life's suppose to be
lady j
shines bright high above the tree
glowing on the body so heavenly
never so beautiful and bright
did the revelation of my life
move from behind the branches
as a mask only to reveal
the true feeling of life & love
that moment
shone bright
through the tree beyond
what should have been days brough out of me
a feeling never to be felt again by me
but a knowing of my feelings value and how life's suppose to be
lady j
Saturday, August 20, 2005
Thoughts....
i never thought I would be so in love that I couldn't see clearly. It was the day KG was so into me that Ijust couldn't see past what he was really after. Yea I believe that to a certain extent that he cared, just a little bit. I never thought I would go to work everyday and take the money I made to pay for dates, buy my boyfriend's lunch, give him money to get to the corner store or give him $5.00, I'm sure was used to pay his homeboy back. Yea stupidly I did all those things and more just to make sure he would love me and prove that I was his girlfriend, the best girlfriend a guy could have. Only for him to betray me, talk about me, cheat on me, use me, and treat me like the scum on the bottom of his shoe. It wasn't until after KG that I realized I was worth more than gold, rubies and diamonds. Now I see! Never again will it be me..................
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
the sound of that kiss
Never imagined one would miss
the sound of a kiss
the scent of lovemaking mixed with a fresh car scent
the smell of a sweaty man
or the feel of his rough hand caressing my thigh up and down
missing that touch that made me----------------
that whisper in my ear that removed all fear from my heart mind and soul
with the assurance that I wouldn't have miss all the things I fell in love with----
all beginning with the sound of that kiss
the sound of a kiss
the scent of lovemaking mixed with a fresh car scent
the smell of a sweaty man
or the feel of his rough hand caressing my thigh up and down
missing that touch that made me----------------
that whisper in my ear that removed all fear from my heart mind and soul
with the assurance that I wouldn't have miss all the things I fell in love with----
all beginning with the sound of that kiss
Saturday, August 06, 2005
Tree
It begins at the root, or better yet the seed. A small inkling of something with the curiosity of where it will lead. It bursts then with roots going every which way. Bursting out tears, fears, joy, excitement the biggest being Life. Going different directions eager to burst through earth and form something bigger for the world to see. The outside old and rugged yet the inside full of juicy proofs or rings, Life. Morals, integrity and the ability to form a pattern and become something greater than just what the world sees. The rings of knowledge and falling leaves of growth. The enrichment of lives and forming of trees.
08/05/05
08/05/05
04.August.05
terrible feeling
violation of pureness
infected with disgust beyond imagination
fear of the unclean
unknowing of the cure
clueless of what was thought to be sacred
knowing shared beyond yourself
only to see what was actual
somewhere beyond what was actual
now factual with the test
when at your best beyond sight
not to know how the page will turn
happy somewhat fairy tale ending
or hell on earth with the rememberence of that
terrible feeling
violation of pureness
infected with disgust beyond imagination
fear of the unclean
unknowing of the cure
clueless of what was thought to be sacred
knowing shared beyond yourself
only to see what was actual
somewhere beyond what was actual
now factual with the test
when at your best beyond sight
not to know how the page will turn
happy somewhat fairy tale ending
or hell on earth with the rememberence of that
terrible feeling
Monday, July 18, 2005
No Title
It was that day the response of my dreams came, unknowing that the invitation of a lifetime would turn into a dream come true
The best friend a woman could ever have hella kool hella sexy and hella smart
I thought the few secs it took to write that note was as long as he would pay me some attention but all that has infinitied beyond my imagination
all more than would I could ever think or dream
My life a living person who is everything I ever wanted in a friend, a man and so much more
Why is it all the good men have to be taken?
Taken by the worlds thoughts and dreams overlooking what may be their dream and their thoughts. The best thing that God created for man.
The best friend a woman could ever have hella kool hella sexy and hella smart
I thought the few secs it took to write that note was as long as he would pay me some attention but all that has infinitied beyond my imagination
all more than would I could ever think or dream
My life a living person who is everything I ever wanted in a friend, a man and so much more
Why is it all the good men have to be taken?
Taken by the worlds thoughts and dreams overlooking what may be their dream and their thoughts. The best thing that God created for man.
Saturday, July 16, 2005
Tree Hugger
While walking through the Northern California woods a man came up toanother man hugging a tree with his ear firmly against the tree.Seeingthis he inquired, "Just out of curiosity, what the heck are you doing?""I'mlistening to the music of the tree," the other man replied. "You gotta bekiddin' me." "No, would you like to give it a try?" Understandablycurious,the man says, "Well, OK. . . ." So he wrapped his arms around the treeandpressed his ear up against it. With this the other guy slapped pairofhandcuffs on him, took his wallet, jewelry, car keys, then strippedhimnaked and left. Two hours later another nature lover strolled by, sawthisguy handcuffed to the tree stark naked, and asked "What the hellhappenedto you?" He told the guy the whole story about how he got there. Whenhefinished telling his story, the other guy shook his head in sympathy,walkedaround behind him, kissed him behind the ear and said, "This justisn'tgonna be your day."--
A Favor to Ask
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AGAIN, PLEASE TELL 10 FRIENDS TO TELL 10 TODAY
"Swearing @ Work" Memo
Dear Employees:
It has been brought to management's attention that some individuals throughout the company have been using foul language during the course of normal conversation with their coworkers. Due to complaints received from some employees who may be easily offended, this type of language will no longer be tolerated. We do however, realize the critical importance of being able to accurately express your feelings when communicating with coworkers. Therefore, a list of "TRY SAYING" new phrases has been provided so that proper exchange of ideas and information can continue in an effective manner.
1) TRY SAYING: I think you could use more training.
INSTEAD OF: You don't know what the f___ you're doing.
2) TRY SAYING: She's an aggressive go-getter.
INSTEAD OF: She's a ball-busting b__ch.
3) TRY SAYING: Perhaps I can work late.
INSTEAD OF: And when the f___ do you expect me to do this?
4) TRY SAYING: I'm certain that isn't feasible.
INSTEAD OF: No f______ way.
5) TRY SAYING: Really?
INSTEAD OF: You've got to be sh__ing me!
6) TRY SAYING: Perhaps you should check with...
INSTEAD OF: Tell someone who gives a sh__.
7) TRY SAYING: I wasn't involved in the project.
INSTEAD OF: It's not my f______ problem.
8) TRY SAYING: That's interesting.
INSTEAD OF: What the f___?
9) TRY SAYING: I'm not sure this can be implemented.
INSTEAD OF: This sh__ won't work.
10) TRY SAYING: I'll try to schedule that
INSTEAD OF: Why the hell didn't you tell me sooner?
11) TRY SAYING: He's not familiar with the issues.
INSTEAD OF: He's got his head up his a__.
12) TRY SAYING: Excuse me, sir?
INSTEAD OF: Eat sh__ and die.
13) TRY SAYING: So you weren't happy with it?
INSTEAD OF: Kiss my a__.
14) TRY SAYING: I'm a bit overloaded at the moment.
INSTEAD OF: F___ it, I'm on salary.
15) TRY SAYING: I don't think you understand
INSTEAD OF: Shove it up your a__.
16) TRY SAYING: I love a challenge.
INSTEAD OF: This job sucks.
17) TRY SAYING: You want me to take care of that?
INSTEAD OF: Who the hell died and made you boss?
18) TRY SAYING: He's somewhat insensitive.
INSTEAD OF: He's a d___k.
Thank You,
Human Resources
It has been brought to management's attention that some individuals throughout the company have been using foul language during the course of normal conversation with their coworkers. Due to complaints received from some employees who may be easily offended, this type of language will no longer be tolerated. We do however, realize the critical importance of being able to accurately express your feelings when communicating with coworkers. Therefore, a list of "TRY SAYING" new phrases has been provided so that proper exchange of ideas and information can continue in an effective manner.
1) TRY SAYING: I think you could use more training.
INSTEAD OF: You don't know what the f___ you're doing.
2) TRY SAYING: She's an aggressive go-getter.
INSTEAD OF: She's a ball-busting b__ch.
3) TRY SAYING: Perhaps I can work late.
INSTEAD OF: And when the f___ do you expect me to do this?
4) TRY SAYING: I'm certain that isn't feasible.
INSTEAD OF: No f______ way.
5) TRY SAYING: Really?
INSTEAD OF: You've got to be sh__ing me!
6) TRY SAYING: Perhaps you should check with...
INSTEAD OF: Tell someone who gives a sh__.
7) TRY SAYING: I wasn't involved in the project.
INSTEAD OF: It's not my f______ problem.
8) TRY SAYING: That's interesting.
INSTEAD OF: What the f___?
9) TRY SAYING: I'm not sure this can be implemented.
INSTEAD OF: This sh__ won't work.
10) TRY SAYING: I'll try to schedule that
INSTEAD OF: Why the hell didn't you tell me sooner?
11) TRY SAYING: He's not familiar with the issues.
INSTEAD OF: He's got his head up his a__.
12) TRY SAYING: Excuse me, sir?
INSTEAD OF: Eat sh__ and die.
13) TRY SAYING: So you weren't happy with it?
INSTEAD OF: Kiss my a__.
14) TRY SAYING: I'm a bit overloaded at the moment.
INSTEAD OF: F___ it, I'm on salary.
15) TRY SAYING: I don't think you understand
INSTEAD OF: Shove it up your a__.
16) TRY SAYING: I love a challenge.
INSTEAD OF: This job sucks.
17) TRY SAYING: You want me to take care of that?
INSTEAD OF: Who the hell died and made you boss?
18) TRY SAYING: He's somewhat insensitive.
INSTEAD OF: He's a d___k.
Thank You,
Human Resources
Life's lesson No.1
There once was a bunch of tiny frogs, ..who arranged a running competition. The goal was to reach the top of a very high tower. A big crowd had gathered around the tower to see the race and cheer on the contestants... The race began... Honestly...No one in the crowd really believed that the tiny frogs would reach the top of the tower. You heard statements such as: "Oh, WAY too difficult!!!" They will NEVER make it to the top!!!" or: "Not a chance that they will succeed. The tower is too high!!!" The tiny frogs began collapsing. One by one...Except for those, who in a fresh tempo, were climbing higher and higher... The crowd continued to yell, "It is too difficult!!! No one will make it!!!" More tiny frogs got tired and gave up...But ONE continued higher and higher and higher... This one wouldn't give up!!! At the end everyone else had given up climbing the tower. Except for the one tiny frog who, after a big effort, was the only one who reached the top! THEN all of the other tiny frogs naturally wanted to know how this one frog managed to do it? A contestant asked the tiny frog how he had found the strength to succeed and reach the goal? It turned out...That the winner was DEAF!!! The wisdom of this story is: NEVER listen to other people's tendencies to be negative or pessimistic... Because they take your most wonderful dreams and wishes away from you...the ones you have in your heart!!! Always think of the power words have. Because everything you hear and read will affect your actions!!! Therefore: ALWAYS be...POSITIVE!!! And above all: Be DEAF when people tell YOU that you can not fulfill your dreams!!! Always think: God and I can do this!!! Pass this message on to 5 "tiny frogs"you care about. Give them some motivation!!! Don't tell GOD how Big your storm is. Tell the storm how Big your GOD is!
Monday, July 11, 2005
A little Laugh!
A man and his wife were working in their garden one day and the man
looks over at his wife and said, "Your butt is getting really big, I mean
really big. I bet your butt is bigger than the barbecue." With that he
proceeded to get a measuring tape and measure the grill and then went
over to where his wife was working and measured his wife's bottom. "Yes,
I was right, your butt is two inches wider than the barbecue!!!"
The woman chose to ignore her husband. Later that night in bed,
the husband is feeling a little frisky. He makes some advances towards
his wife who completely brushes him off. " What's wrong?" he asks.
She answers, "Do you really think I'm going to fire up this big-ass grill for
one little weenie?"
looks over at his wife and said, "Your butt is getting really big, I mean
really big. I bet your butt is bigger than the barbecue." With that he
proceeded to get a measuring tape and measure the grill and then went
over to where his wife was working and measured his wife's bottom. "Yes,
I was right, your butt is two inches wider than the barbecue!!!"
The woman chose to ignore her husband. Later that night in bed,
the husband is feeling a little frisky. He makes some advances towards
his wife who completely brushes him off. " What's wrong?" he asks.
She answers, "Do you really think I'm going to fire up this big-ass grill for
one little weenie?"
HANDY LITTLE CHART
You say: "It's impossible" God says: All things are possible (Luke 18:27)
You say: "I'm too tired" God says: I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30)
You say: "Nobody really loves me" God says: I love you (John 3:16 & John 3:34 )
You say: "I can't go on" God says: My grace is sufficient (II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)
You say: "I can't figure things out" God says: I will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6)
You say: "I can't do it" God says: You can do all things (Philippians 4:13)
You say: "I'm not able" God says: I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)
You say: "It's not worth it" God says: It will be worth it (Roman 8:28 )
You say: "I can't forgive myself" God says: I Forgive you I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)
You say: "I can't manage" God says: I will supply all your needs (Philippians 4:19)
You say: "I'm afraid" God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear (II Timothy 1:7)
You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated" God says: Cast all your cares on ME (I Peter 5:7)
You say: "I'm not smart enough" God says: I give you wisdom (I Corinthians 1:30)
You say: "I feel all alone" God says: I will never leave you or forsake you (Hebrews 13:5)
You say: "I'm too tired" God says: I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30)
You say: "Nobody really loves me" God says: I love you (John 3:16 & John 3:34 )
You say: "I can't go on" God says: My grace is sufficient (II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)
You say: "I can't figure things out" God says: I will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6)
You say: "I can't do it" God says: You can do all things (Philippians 4:13)
You say: "I'm not able" God says: I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)
You say: "It's not worth it" God says: It will be worth it (Roman 8:28 )
You say: "I can't forgive myself" God says: I Forgive you I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)
You say: "I can't manage" God says: I will supply all your needs (Philippians 4:19)
You say: "I'm afraid" God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear (II Timothy 1:7)
You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated" God says: Cast all your cares on ME (I Peter 5:7)
You say: "I'm not smart enough" God says: I give you wisdom (I Corinthians 1:30)
You say: "I feel all alone" God says: I will never leave you or forsake you (Hebrews 13:5)
CHINESE PROVERBS
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Man who run in front of car get tired.
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Man who run behind car get exhausted.
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Man with hand in pocket feel cocky all day.
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Man who eat many prunes get good run for money.
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Baseball is wrong: man with four balls cannot walk.
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War does not determine who is right, war determine who is left.
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Wife who put husband in doghouse soon find him in cat house.
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Man who fight with wife all day get no piece at night.
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It take many nails to build crib, but one screw to fill it.
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Man who drive like hell, bound to get there.
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Man who stand on toilet is high on pot.
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Man who live in glass house should change clothes in basement.
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Man who fish in other man's well often catch crabs.
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Man who fart in church sit in own pew.
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Crowded elevator smell different to midget.
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Man who run in front of car get tired.
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Man who run behind car get exhausted.
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Man with hand in pocket feel cocky all day.
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Man who eat many prunes get good run for money.
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Baseball is wrong: man with four balls cannot walk.
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War does not determine who is right, war determine who is left.
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Wife who put husband in doghouse soon find him in cat house.
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Man who fight with wife all day get no piece at night.
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It take many nails to build crib, but one screw to fill it.
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Man who drive like hell, bound to get there.
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Man who stand on toilet is high on pot.
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Man who live in glass house should change clothes in basement.
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Man who fish in other man's well often catch crabs.
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Man who fart in church sit in own pew.
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Crowded elevator smell different to midget.
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Who Am I?
I wonder each and everyday about the person I am, honestly I don't know. Suprising huh? I know who God says I am but I often wonder if I deserve to be that which he wants me to be
I wake up each day going through the motion because that's the only thing I seem to know, but beyond that nothing makes sense to me.
I know God has a purpose and a plan for my life but it just isn't coming as simple as I think it should.
It's funny how we each have things we love to do, movies we love to see, favorite songs, colors, books and holidays but I have come to realize yes that some of those things set us apart being different as individuals and yet the same as others but non of this defines or says exactly who we are--again who am I?
I can say what I want to be or how I want to be but the reality of it all is I don't have much of a decision as far as all of that is concerned. I have only to decide what I'm going to dress this earthly body in each day. The ultimate decision and plan has already been made, despite the roads I detour to. It's already been made but still, who Am I?
I wake up each day going through the motion because that's the only thing I seem to know, but beyond that nothing makes sense to me.
I know God has a purpose and a plan for my life but it just isn't coming as simple as I think it should.
It's funny how we each have things we love to do, movies we love to see, favorite songs, colors, books and holidays but I have come to realize yes that some of those things set us apart being different as individuals and yet the same as others but non of this defines or says exactly who we are--again who am I?
I can say what I want to be or how I want to be but the reality of it all is I don't have much of a decision as far as all of that is concerned. I have only to decide what I'm going to dress this earthly body in each day. The ultimate decision and plan has already been made, despite the roads I detour to. It's already been made but still, who Am I?
Sunday, July 10, 2005
Consistency
I don't have much to say today. I have had a pounding headache and haven't been able to do much today but lay in my bed and rest. Maybe this is my body's way of telling me that I need to just sit down and do NOTHING! I want to continue to Blog though because it's been brought to my attention that I do have some people who read regularly and they noticed when I went a few days without leaving a word here. So here's for today. I am thinking of something new to write about in my head and hopefully I can complete it tonight and get it here so that you guys can read it. Until the next piece...Peace
~*~Jasmine~*~
~*~Jasmine~*~
Saturday, July 09, 2005
The Resume of Jesus Christ
The Resume of Jesus Christ
Address: Ephesians 1:20
Phone: Romans 10:13
Website: The Bible. Keywords: Christ, Lord, Savior and Jesus
Hello. My name is Jesus -The Christ. Many call me Lord! I've sent you my resume because I'm seeking the top management position in your heart. Please consider my accomplishments as set forth in my resume.
Qualifications
I founded the earth and established the heavens, (See Proverbs 3:19)
I formed man from the dust of the ground, (See Genesis 2:7)
I breathed into man the breath of life, (See Genesis 2:7)
I redeemed man from the curse of the law, (See Galatians 3:13)
The blessings of the Abrahamic Covenant comes upon your life through me, (See Galatians 3:14)
Occupational Background
Address: Ephesians 1:20
Phone: Romans 10:13
Website: The Bible. Keywords: Christ, Lord, Savior and Jesus
Hello. My name is Jesus -The Christ. Many call me Lord! I've sent you my resume because I'm seeking the top management position in your heart. Please consider my accomplishments as set forth in my resume.
Qualifications
I founded the earth and established the heavens, (See Proverbs 3:19)
I formed man from the dust of the ground, (See Genesis 2:7)
I breathed into man the breath of life, (See Genesis 2:7)
I redeemed man from the curse of the law, (See Galatians 3:13)
The blessings of the Abrahamic Covenant comes upon your life through me, (See Galatians 3:14)
Occupational Background
I've only had one employer, (See Luke 2:49).
I've never been tardy, absent, disobedient, slothful or disrespectful.
My employer has nothing but rave reviews for me, (See Matthew 3:15-17)
I've never been tardy, absent, disobedient, slothful or disrespectful.
My employer has nothing but rave reviews for me, (See Matthew 3:15-17)
Skills Work Experiences
Some of my skills and work experiences include: empowering the poor to be poor no more, healing the brokenhearted, setting the captives free, healing the sick, restoring sight to the blind and setting at liberty them that are bruised, (See Luke 4:18).
I am a Wonderful Counselor, (See Isaiah 9:6). People who listen to me shall dwell safely and shall not fear evil, (See Proverbs 1:33).
Most importantly, I have the authority, ability and power to cleanse you of your sins, (See I John 1:7-9)
Some of my skills and work experiences include: empowering the poor to be poor no more, healing the brokenhearted, setting the captives free, healing the sick, restoring sight to the blind and setting at liberty them that are bruised, (See Luke 4:18).
I am a Wonderful Counselor, (See Isaiah 9:6). People who listen to me shall dwell safely and shall not fear evil, (See Proverbs 1:33).
Most importantly, I have the authority, ability and power to cleanse you of your sins, (See I John 1:7-9)
Educational Background
I encompass the entire breadth and length of knowledge, wisdom and understanding, (See Proverbs 2:6).
In me are hid all of the treasures of wisdom and knowledge, (See Colossians 2:3).
My Word is so powerful; it has been described as being a lamp unto your feet and a lamp unto your path, (See Psalms 119:105).
I can even tell you all of the secrets of your heart, (See Psalms 44:21).
In me are hid all of the treasures of wisdom and knowledge, (See Colossians 2:3).
My Word is so powerful; it has been described as being a lamp unto your feet and a lamp unto your path, (See Psalms 119:105).
I can even tell you all of the secrets of your heart, (See Psalms 44:21).
Major Accomplishments
I was an active participant in the greatest Summit Meeting of all times, (See Genesis 1:26).
I laid down my life so that you may live, (See II Corinthians 5:15).
I defeated the archenemy of God and mankind and made a show of them openly, (See Colossians 2:15).
I've miraculously fed the poor, healed the sick and raised the dead!
There are many more major accomplishments, too many to mention here. You can read them on my website, which is located at: www dot - the BIBLE. You don't need an Internet connection or computer to access my website.
I was an active participant in the greatest Summit Meeting of all times, (See Genesis 1:26).
I laid down my life so that you may live, (See II Corinthians 5:15).
I defeated the archenemy of God and mankind and made a show of them openly, (See Colossians 2:15).
I've miraculously fed the poor, healed the sick and raised the dead!
There are many more major accomplishments, too many to mention here. You can read them on my website, which is located at: www dot - the BIBLE. You don't need an Internet connection or computer to access my website.
References
Believers and followers worldwide will testify to my divine healings, salvation, deliverance, miracles, restoration and supernatural guidance
In Summation
Now that you've read my resume, I'm confident that I'm the only candidate uniquely qualified to fill this vital position in your heart. In summation, I will properly direct your paths, (See Proverbs 3:5-6), and lead you into everlasting life, (See John 6:47). When can I start? Time is of the essence, (See Hebrews 3:15).
Believers and followers worldwide will testify to my divine healings, salvation, deliverance, miracles, restoration and supernatural guidance
In Summation
Now that you've read my resume, I'm confident that I'm the only candidate uniquely qualified to fill this vital position in your heart. In summation, I will properly direct your paths, (See Proverbs 3:5-6), and lead you into everlasting life, (See John 6:47). When can I start? Time is of the essence, (See Hebrews 3:15).
Send this resume to everyone you know, you never know who may have an opening! Thanks for your help and may God bless you!
09.July.05
Some hide like the sun beyond the cloud full of rain waiting for the breaking point to release every hurt, pain, fear, doubt and hinderance that was held on to over a lifetime no one knows when that rain will come or whether its a spring shower bringing april flowers or harsh rain with winds and thunderstorms to follow will it flood the soul or give just enough to say there was a release of something or some things that have held us in bondage over time
Friday, July 08, 2005
The Life
Often life presents me with obstacles I think that I may never overcome. Then I wonder, what happened to that day when all I had to do was wake up, go to school, do school work, come home and woner wshat the next episode of the Power Rangers would hold. Now I get up, go to work, work, come home, cook, and wonder if I will have enough money to make it through to the next paycheck. Yea when we all were little we wanted to "grown" but didn't realize what age would exactly hold. At times I want to go back to my carefree life of schoolwork and cartoons and not worry about or think about or even imagine being grown. I know someone else feels my pain. Just a thought...until the next piece...PEACE
Jasmine
Jasmine
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
I don't consider....
Myself cheap but I love shopping and I have to always get more for my money. I had promised my daughter on several occassions that I would be taking her swimming so Saturday morning when I woke up I decided that we would go bathing suit shopping. When I left my home, I really didn't have a particular price in mind for what I would spend but I knew that I didn't want to spend a whole lot, especially since I had to buy 2 suits. So we went to TJMaxx and I found the baby a Tommy Hilfiger suit for 7.00, nothing for me there so I went to Burlington's and found me a HotKiss bathing suit for 10.00. All and all I did good for the day and spent less than 20.00 for the both of us! I think I did pretty good!
Until the next piece....PEACE
Jassy
Until the next piece....PEACE
Jassy
The Dumbest Hotel
07/01/2005
I was at a local hotel in the Birmingham area for a party that my cousin threw for her daughter and mother. It was great! She went all out on the food, decoration, hired a dj and invited everyone we knew. It was absolutely amazing. Well of course there had to be some bad to get to the halfway good! It just wouldn't have been right if she didn't have to deal with some very dishonest and unprofessional people. The place that she planned on having the party originally was close to their home and a central location for everyone she invited. Well the ghetto people that she was renting the place from, gave it away to one of their friends who were so called offering more money for the facility. Didn't shock me one bit though and I sure as heck wasn't impressed with it when I attened a reception at the joint. I was kind of glad that it ended up not being there but gave her a problem of not knowing where the party was going to be held. All of this happened the day before. She called a local hotel and begged and pleaded to use one of their conference rooms and they gave in and let her use the facility. Of course it turned out to be a much nicer and safer enviornment with the exception of us having to keep the noise down. Now in all of my visits to hotels, I have always seen conference rooms in a seperate area away from any of rooms that the guest stayed in. NOT THIS HOTEL!! There were rooms right across from the conference room we were using; which meant that we had to keep the noise level down and keep everyone inside of the room unless they were quietly going to the bathroom. So that messed us up because the DJ she hired had to play really soft music and we had to quiet as can be but we still had a wonderful time! I just don't understand for the life of me, how you put guest rooms across from conference rooms. Go figure....until the next piece...PEACE!
Jassy
I was at a local hotel in the Birmingham area for a party that my cousin threw for her daughter and mother. It was great! She went all out on the food, decoration, hired a dj and invited everyone we knew. It was absolutely amazing. Well of course there had to be some bad to get to the halfway good! It just wouldn't have been right if she didn't have to deal with some very dishonest and unprofessional people. The place that she planned on having the party originally was close to their home and a central location for everyone she invited. Well the ghetto people that she was renting the place from, gave it away to one of their friends who were so called offering more money for the facility. Didn't shock me one bit though and I sure as heck wasn't impressed with it when I attened a reception at the joint. I was kind of glad that it ended up not being there but gave her a problem of not knowing where the party was going to be held. All of this happened the day before. She called a local hotel and begged and pleaded to use one of their conference rooms and they gave in and let her use the facility. Of course it turned out to be a much nicer and safer enviornment with the exception of us having to keep the noise down. Now in all of my visits to hotels, I have always seen conference rooms in a seperate area away from any of rooms that the guest stayed in. NOT THIS HOTEL!! There were rooms right across from the conference room we were using; which meant that we had to keep the noise level down and keep everyone inside of the room unless they were quietly going to the bathroom. So that messed us up because the DJ she hired had to play really soft music and we had to quiet as can be but we still had a wonderful time! I just don't understand for the life of me, how you put guest rooms across from conference rooms. Go figure....until the next piece...PEACE!
Jassy
Thursday, June 30, 2005
6/30/05
Yo Yo Yo
I am still trying to get used to this blogging thing. I have come to realize that it gives me some sort of peace of mind and relaxes me a bit to know that I can release the thoughts in my head to an online diary that anyone can have access to. (lol) I have to think twice about things that I write here sometimes, I just don't want to get myself into any trouble in case my best friend or another person I may know stumbles across this. Oh well.....
I had a pretty good day yesterday, still very tired from my weekend. I just can't seem to find a place to run off to where no one knows me or can call my cell phone to BUG me! Soon enough I guess. My aunt is still adjusting to having to give herself insulin not to mention she is trying to take care of my great aunt who also has been put on insulin and of course I have to run her errands and take her to the store because she can't drive. The Lord will bless but at some point GOD I have to have rest.
I have missed out on being home and even getting to spend time with my best friend in the whole wide world (RCV).
I normally keep up with current events but lately I have been so out of it that I haven't even been able to keep up with myself. My daughter is doing really good and she loves her head start class. She never seems to tell me exactly what I want to know regarding her day at school. I guess eventually she will start to let me into that little brain of hers.
Oh yea before I forget it was so interesting that I saw a guy I haven't seen in a year. I feel kind of bad because of the way I did him. The ironic part of it all was the fact that I thought about him earlier this week. Wondering exactly what was going on with him and the usual how was he type stuff. Never to imagine or think that I would see him riding his bike (part of his exercise regimine (sp) ) while I was taking my aunt on her errands. Then I laughed because the first thing he said to me was, "I see that you are still keeping it sexy" and of course my reply was, "You know how I do it!" Interestingly enough we talked last night to kind of clear some things and I apologized for doing him wrong when he was nothing but sweet to me. Then at 6:30 a.m. my phone rang and it was him calling to say Good Morning! Boy did I feel special. ALL in ALL yesterday was a good day. Nothing really exciting happened but God is stilll good and that's all that matters.
Jas
I am still trying to get used to this blogging thing. I have come to realize that it gives me some sort of peace of mind and relaxes me a bit to know that I can release the thoughts in my head to an online diary that anyone can have access to. (lol) I have to think twice about things that I write here sometimes, I just don't want to get myself into any trouble in case my best friend or another person I may know stumbles across this. Oh well.....
I had a pretty good day yesterday, still very tired from my weekend. I just can't seem to find a place to run off to where no one knows me or can call my cell phone to BUG me! Soon enough I guess. My aunt is still adjusting to having to give herself insulin not to mention she is trying to take care of my great aunt who also has been put on insulin and of course I have to run her errands and take her to the store because she can't drive. The Lord will bless but at some point GOD I have to have rest.
I have missed out on being home and even getting to spend time with my best friend in the whole wide world (RCV).
I normally keep up with current events but lately I have been so out of it that I haven't even been able to keep up with myself. My daughter is doing really good and she loves her head start class. She never seems to tell me exactly what I want to know regarding her day at school. I guess eventually she will start to let me into that little brain of hers.
Oh yea before I forget it was so interesting that I saw a guy I haven't seen in a year. I feel kind of bad because of the way I did him. The ironic part of it all was the fact that I thought about him earlier this week. Wondering exactly what was going on with him and the usual how was he type stuff. Never to imagine or think that I would see him riding his bike (part of his exercise regimine (sp) ) while I was taking my aunt on her errands. Then I laughed because the first thing he said to me was, "I see that you are still keeping it sexy" and of course my reply was, "You know how I do it!" Interestingly enough we talked last night to kind of clear some things and I apologized for doing him wrong when he was nothing but sweet to me. Then at 6:30 a.m. my phone rang and it was him calling to say Good Morning! Boy did I feel special. ALL in ALL yesterday was a good day. Nothing really exciting happened but God is stilll good and that's all that matters.
Jas
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Wonder
I often wonder what my life would be like without the past I had
I often wonder what my life would be life if I had everything I desired
I often wonder what my life would be like if I had not become a mother at 18
I often wonder what my life would be like if I was an only child
I often wonder what my life would be like I went off to college
I guess these are things I'll never know but things I will often wish that happened or wonder if I would be the person I am now
I might have been everything that my mom wanted me to be with good grades, character and the high school sweetie she saw me to be
Or maybe I'd be driving a CLK Mercedes finishing up a degree just to be getting it
Enjoying the college life, living it up in my own world, maybe joining the sorority of my choice being all that in a bag of chips
Yea right
I would probably be alone and scared with no one to love and care for or maybe wild and out of control not knowing which way to turn
An only child spoiled but lost not knowing who what when where or how in the hell----
If I went off to college---Yea I'll never know
I often wonder what my life would be life if I had everything I desired
I often wonder what my life would be like if I had not become a mother at 18
I often wonder what my life would be like if I was an only child
I often wonder what my life would be like I went off to college
I guess these are things I'll never know but things I will often wish that happened or wonder if I would be the person I am now
I might have been everything that my mom wanted me to be with good grades, character and the high school sweetie she saw me to be
Or maybe I'd be driving a CLK Mercedes finishing up a degree just to be getting it
Enjoying the college life, living it up in my own world, maybe joining the sorority of my choice being all that in a bag of chips
Yea right
I would probably be alone and scared with no one to love and care for or maybe wild and out of control not knowing which way to turn
An only child spoiled but lost not knowing who what when where or how in the hell----
If I went off to college---Yea I'll never know
American Flag in a Whole New Light
American Flag: This is awesome READ THROUGH TO UNDER THE PICTURE.This is a beautiful photo of a giant flag in Arizona. The photo is authentic and un-retouched. The picture was taken on regular Kodak 35 mm film. The person who took the picture couldn't believe the image created by the sun's rays. Nice of them to share with the world! For those that prefer to think that God is not watching over us....go ahead and delete this. For the rest of us.....pass this on.
Monday, June 27, 2005
Today....
Today was another day that starts off the week, the dreaded Monday! Yea I hated to see it. When I woke up this morning I had a terrible headache and lately I have been having them. It's been weird. I think I am overworking myself. This weekend I was on the go none stop once I finished my full time job. After I left work I was going to meet with a bride whose wedding was on Sunday to discuss final details regarding the big day so that everything could flow as it should. It was quite interesting. She being from Haiti and I had never been involved with Haitians and it was an interesting experience. I learned a little bit about their food and their music which was enough for me, not to mention their attitudes and they are not very friendly people at all. Although we had a few rough moments with the Bride being overwhelmed with everything, the wedding was beautiful. She was very sad because her father was not able to leave Haiti to be there to escort her on her big day but he was there in spirit and she was settled by the time she was to walk down the aisle.
Friday, June 24, 2005
TNIGP
Yea now that I think about it, I know what happened. Of course I didn't know what was going to happen but now I remember it all clearly. Just like it was yesterday, when he got mad because another dude was paying me some attention. He couldn't stand that other man going after what he thought was always going to be his as long as he wanted it to be. The night my boy "John Doe" brought me home from the football game was the night he wanted he wanted to ride with my mom and use her key at my doorstep to get into the house to prove that all John Doe wanted to do was get some of what he had experienced for months. The thing is I don't know why I was still fooling with him in the first place. When all the while it was John Doe that I had the crush on but never did he go after what all the others wanted for that brief moment of pleasure just to get a chance to tell everyone yea I had her too. Just when I thought about it, it made me wonder really about him and it became more clearer that he wanted to have his cake and eat it too. I let John go so that we could keep the peace and the donor stay only to find myself giving it up to the guy I once gave my whole heart to. The one who lied and told me he loved me, the who cheated with the girl down the street from me (whose house I could see when I walked out my door), the one who didn't appreciate a damn thing I did for him and yet I still gave up the goodies. (I get mad when I think about it) For what? Yea I was thinking that maybe one day he would come to his senses and take me back so that we could live happily ever after. Yea right! The moment was right I got mine, he got his but little did I know that he wouldn't use the famouse "PULL OUT" method that he had used so many times before. He was enjoying that good moment and got caught all up in that good stuff and BAM!!!! That's when hell began for me..........
Thursday, June 23, 2005
6/23/05
~Hola Mi Bloggers~
I didn't personally post yesterday so I figured I should today. Life is kool right now. Just trying to think and work out the kinks. My daughter is wonderful, "Healthy as a Horse as her Dr. would say." Oh yea that reminds me that I need to make her appointment for her check up. Anyways....Don't really have any dilemmas right now. Just life itself can be a dilemma in itself. I often wonder why life has so many journeys, ups and down, etc..etc..etc.. but then I realize that all of my issues come into play because of the path I have chosen to take my life down. I realized that being a Christian, no one ever said that it would be easy, hard neither for that matter but a continual test of Character, strength, Test and most of all being able to TRUST GOD! Anyways, I don't want to preach but that's what was on my heart for today. Hopefully I will have another heart to heart moment and express some feelings with u guys!
Until the next Piece.........Peace
I didn't personally post yesterday so I figured I should today. Life is kool right now. Just trying to think and work out the kinks. My daughter is wonderful, "Healthy as a Horse as her Dr. would say." Oh yea that reminds me that I need to make her appointment for her check up. Anyways....Don't really have any dilemmas right now. Just life itself can be a dilemma in itself. I often wonder why life has so many journeys, ups and down, etc..etc..etc.. but then I realize that all of my issues come into play because of the path I have chosen to take my life down. I realized that being a Christian, no one ever said that it would be easy, hard neither for that matter but a continual test of Character, strength, Test and most of all being able to TRUST GOD! Anyways, I don't want to preach but that's what was on my heart for today. Hopefully I will have another heart to heart moment and express some feelings with u guys!
Until the next Piece.........Peace
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